Jon had a difficult night. He seemed agitated and had difficulty breathing. I gave him oxygen and I don't think it helped much but it at least made me feel like I was doing something. I also increased the dosage of his Adavan which seemed to help a little. The Hospice nurse arrived this morning and prepared us all for the possibility of Jon's passing. When she checked him she felt that I should prepare the family for the possibility of today or tomorrow. During the night and morning Jon was moving his arms and legs and making all kinds of growling sounds...like he was trying to tell us something. The nurse told us that when people go through the process of dying that they spend their time thinking of their lives and remember not only the good, but the regrets that they may have had. They also worry that the people they love are not ready to let them go. She felt that it was important that we all let him know that we are OK with his passing and that each of us will be able to go on without him, that we love and appreciate him, and forgive him for anything he might have done that was hurtful. Staci and I called all of the family and everyone in the area came over and had some private time with Jon. Cindy called and talked to him on the telephone. Once each of spoke with him personally we all congregated in the bedroom and Staci led us in a prayer. It was a beautiful moment and brought tears to everyone's eyes.

Jon seemed much more relaxed after both the individual and group sessions. The nurse also provided us with some additional medications for relaxation. The family all spent the day and continued to visit with Jon throughout the afternoon. Tony not only cooked dinner but with Dan's help also fixed my broken barbq. Around 7:30 the rest of the family headed home and Staci, Levi, Ericka, Octavio, Wyatt, Liz, Kelsey, my mom and dad remain. Jon has stopped growling, flailing and seems to be resting comfortable. His breathing is labored and gurgling but he finally seems at peace.